Happy Birthday to me!

So Yesterday was my birthday, the big 24! isn't it weird as we get older how birthdays seem to matter less and less. It seemed like any other day except for the fact that I got to use the birthday card every once and a while. (It's my Birthday dang it you have to do this, or I get to do this.. you know that sort of thing (: ) anyway.. it was fun, We had friends over last night and had dinner, and then we went bowling! I know when do you go bowling for your birthday unless you are in like 5th grade? well I guess I do. It was a tun of fun. We hang out with these other two couples all the time and play games and cards and have dinner over at each others houses all the time, but to actually get out and do something it was such a good time. I kicked some serious butt the first game with a dominating score of 152. By the second game I was so tired and sore (from my first game) that I couldn't keep up my streak. Seriously I was so sore, my hand hurt from griping the ball my fore arm hurt, my peak hurt, my back hurt, my shoulder hurt. I know I am way out of shape but this is pretty bad it was only a 9 Pound ball for crying out loud! Maybe it was all my victory dancing. We (meaning the two other girls and my self) made up a rule at the beginning of the 1st game that we had to have a victory dance at the end of each bowl that we did well at. You could get points for style, but most importantly creativity and originality. You couldn't do the same move twice. This is what made the game even better! So the second game my husband killed everything with a dominating score of 187! So that's my birthday story, a big thanks to my husband, Bashton (also known as Ben and Ashton), Sarah and Stevo for making my birthday a great one! Sorry I didn't bring the camera, so no pictures.. I know I am more upset about this then you are trust me!

baby making...It's like a one two punch!

The baby making department has been on a low note this last month. It started with the exciting news from Brandon's brother that after going off birth control for only one month they got pregnant! They have been married about 6 months and it was a big shocker for everyone! When they called to tell us, they were really nervous to tell us because they knew we have been trying. It was so exciting but on the inside I was dieing. As soon as Brandon hung up the phone with his brother his mom called to see how we were doing and how we took the "news". She talked to Brandon for a while, the whole time I was shaking my head and mouthing to him "I don't want to talk to her.” (Not that I don't want to talk to her just the fact that I knew if I did talk to her I would lose it. The perfectly placed smile I had on my face pretending I wasn't hurting inside would be crumbled if I got a little sympathy from someone that has been there…) Then I here yeah she’s right here hold on... I gave Brandon "a look" and took the phone with a smile. I had to hurry to the other room before the tears bursted out of me. We were at our friends house and I didn't want to make a seen.
Then about a week later I felt really nauseous, my boobs hurt, my smelling senses where working like crazy everything I smelt I about heaved up whatever was in my stomach. I felt like I just had to be pregnant. I told my self I knew I would be pregnant when I got sick. I was getting excited like too excited when you lie awake at night thinking could this really be it? I knew I was getting my hopes up too high but I just couldn't help it. Then a few days later my cramps started and I about died! Every month when you are trying to get pregnant and you start it's horrible. But what makes it even worse is the fact that my cramps hurt like hell! It's seriously the biggest slap in the face! Not only do you find out you are not pregnant yet again but you are also in the worst pain ever! It's like a one two punch to the heart.
Anyway.. I am doing better I go a few months of being ok and then I'll have a really bad month! January was my bad month. Things are looking up for February and I am planning on going into the doctor next month. I went in a few months back and he told me to try for at least a year and then they will start looking at what might be the problem. Next month is our year mark for trying. I'll let you all know how it goes.
One more thing.. to all of you who ARE pregnant right now, don't for one second think that I am not happy for you or that you can't share your exciting news with me or be excited in front of me because I am happy for you, ALL of you. What an exciting time! It makes me happy to see your news and I look forward to seeing and reading your up dates so keep them coming!

gray

So it's official we have our new computer! and the internet is hooked up. I have been on it practically all day. I finnally had to take a break and put on some clothes and some make up. now I fill a little better about my self. I did a lot of cleaning yesterday so I don't feel as guilty sitting here on the computer. So the reason for this post... I am going gray! I knew it was inevitable and someday I would have to surrender to my fate and die my hair every month but I didn't think it would come just shy of my 24th birthday! My mom is completely gray and so are some of my uncles and my grandma (all on my moms side). That just so happens to be the side of the family that I take after. I am just like my mom, when people from my moms past see me they think I look just like her. My mom started going gray really young too. :( I noticed the gray hairs about a month ago, and I started seeing more and more, I died my hair and my re-growth is coming in it's not way noticable because my natural hair color is close to what I die it but I already have gray re-growth! I know... I guess I just have to accept defeat and by boxes of hair die in bulk!

Computer/Internet Shopping

Hello everyone,

I know I am the biggest slacker in the blogging world but here I am once again. I know you don't know this about me but I have gone through moving out getting married and still not surrendering and getting the Internet and a computer! I know I know how could I have lasted this long? And how could I be the amazing blogger with out it? (well... maybe that's why I am a horrible blogger?) Anyway with over a year of my husband asking for a computer and Internet I finally have come to a point in my life where I really NEED it. I have never thought I needed it that badly I know it was inconvenient and it would be way better if we had our own! but I am such a cheap skate sometimes. and Internet is expensive! My parents live about a 30 second drive from my house and we have been using theirs. The turning point came when I was called as the Secretary in the Primary for our ward. I was shocked and scared to accept the call (over the phone may I add, right before we walked out the door to go to church) I didn't realize how much my new calling required computer work. So I am caving and we have been computer shopping.. A LOT. Needless to say we are excited about it! And if nothing else then perhaps I will become a better blogger out of it!

New family pics

new family pictures... we were going to do them outside but it ended up being bad weather so we threw something together at the last minute in the house, my mom hates them so we are doing them again. :) that's okay with us fortunately none of us are camera shy!

I am so excited we had Christmas with my family last night and it was a big success! and now tomorrow we are flying out to New Jersey for more family and Christmas fun! Brandon and I have been very blessed in our lives to have awesome in-laws! We both love hanging out with each others families! :)

Tickled Pink

Has anyone herd of tickled pink parties? I saw the van or SUV whatever it was with the logo on it a couple months ago in my parking lot becuase my neighbor was having a party or somthing? I thought it looked really fun but didn't know anything about it except what it said on the side of the van. A few months went by and I saw them again at the what women want expo. They were super nice and it looked like so much fun! I have been thinking about throwing a party since I saw them last time. Long story short my sister and I are throwing a party on December 8th. I know most of you live far away but if you happen to be in town that weekend and you want to go let me know! E-mail me your address and I will send you an invitaion on what time and where. I am so excited it is going to be a lot of fun! Brandon is excited too! haha.. If you havn't herd about them before it is just one lady that does it, it is her business and she does TASTEFUL "sex" parties. She is really nice and super cute! So if any of you are interested let me know... my e-mail is HeatherTrask@hotmail.com

Brydee An Davey

This is my adorable niece Brydee (Brittany's daughter) she is 2 years old. She was a flower girl for a friends wedding this summer. She did so well, it was her and another boy that walked down the isle together the boy being the ring bearer. She had been practicing and we had been talking to her about it for weeks prepping her for the big day. We didn't want her to freeze up in front of everyone when the time actually came for her to have her big debut. She loved her dress and her real flowers she got to wear in her hair. She loves to look pretty and she sat still while I did her hair in hot curlers. She did really well. and it turned out beautiful! She had her little umbrella on one arm full or petals and her other arm free so she could throw the flowers with her other hand. It was adorable! She kind of froze up a little when she fell flat on her face because she tripped on her dress which was a little bit too long. She was fine got right back up and continued down the isle. The wedding was beautiful it was out side on the grass at the Entrada Golf Course. With the lunch-in and reception at the club house. It was really beautiful. Brydee did great and didn't she look beautiful too!

Auntie Auntie Auntie

This is my beautiful new neice. She was born on August 30th She had a little bit of complications when she was born which requiered surgery, a lot of prayers and some fasting. She has become strong and healthy and is acting like any other healthy little baby girl! She truely is beautiful! Here are a few pitures of her. This is Brandon's sister Kelsey and her husband Kevin's baby girl. They named her Annalise. I cant wait to go out and visit! They live in Philly and will be blessing her the first week in November I am so excited to see them and introduce my self to my new neice!

ALSO... my sister Tiffany had her second baby on September 7th. He was very helthy and the delivery went well. They named him Beckham Wolf.

how time flies when you are having fun!

So Brandon and I had our one year anniversary yesterday. I cant believe it's been a year and at the same time I cant remember how my life was before Brandon was in it? Does that makes sense? This year has gone by so fast and then again it feels like we have been married forever! I love my husband he is so sweet and good to me! We voted to stay home for our anniversary we thought about flying somewhere but we decided to stay home cook dinner and relax together. One of our favorite things to do! It was a great weekend with cooking, relaxing, watching movies, and re-enacting our honeymoon ;) (if you know what I mean) still trying for that baby... things are wonderful, I am so grateful for a wonderful marriage with an amazing husband!

part time!

Soo.. I am going part time next month, I am so excited! I don't really know what exactly is going to happen to the money situation, but I think we will live with in our means and this will just force us to not spend as much. I think it is a lot easier to not spend when you don't have the money to do it. :) I have been waiting for Brandon's insurance to kick in with his new job so that we won’t need my job for the insurance. sooo.. Starting next month I will be home a lot more! I have a friend that every time we talk he always reminds me that you have to be home to get pregnant and now that I am going to be home more maybe the baby magic will happen?

So, yes that means we have been trying.... about 6 months now! I know it's not that long people try and try and try, and it doesn't ever happen. But when you decided you are going to start trying you think you are instantly going to get pregnant. Well at least that’s what I hoped. I have been flying with a couple of different ladies this last month or two that have similar situations where they tried everything and nothing worked! Insemination, In vitro, fertility shots... I am hoping Heavenly father isn't prepping me for some bad news. I am hoping he isn't having me fly with them just so I can learn how they dealt with it. There was one lady that tried In vitro twice and is still paying for that bill every month with no baby to show for it. :( I am doing better though one month I went crazy with the emotional roller coaster of thinking I was to not, to thinking I was to not. This last month I have been doing way better. I have to be ok with my life even if it takes years. I can’t live my life in an emotional roller coaster state. My parents took three years and Brandon’s parents took five years. So this month I am ok with not being pregnant (well at least that is what I have to tell my self.) My life is good I am so incredibly blessed; I have an amazing family my side and Brandon’s side! My husband is the most incredible man alive; I love him so much and am so grateful for all that he does for me! I have much to be grateful for!