kicking!

This son of mine kicks all the time! I have no idea what to judge it by because I obviously haven't been pregnant before. I don't know if it is normal or if he is a more active baby then most? I wonder if this is just a sign of whats to come with a very active little boy! I don't know?
Things are going well. I have been feeling SO much better. My meds actually work now as before they didn't really do anything, I still would throw up all day even when I took them. But now there is a difference. If I am up too long in the morning with out taking my pills I know it! I am like I don't feel good and then I run to the bathroom! So I am really good at taking my pills. My body doesn't let me forget for too long. I am just glad they are doing something now!
I herd the second trimester was so much better then the first and I was waiting for it to get better the very next day that I entered my third trimester! It eventually got better and the second trimester HAS been better! I have a lot more energy and feel so much better. With less throwing up the wait gain has began! I have already gained 25 pounds! yeah I know! I didn't gain anything until I was at least 41/2 to 5 months a long.. and then in my 5th month I pretty much made up for lost time and gained everything really fast! I don't even know how that is possible? To gain 25 pounds in a few short weeks? that can't be normal! I will be 6 months on Saturday! 24 weeks! yeah!
I just thought I would post a little update on the pregnancy more pictures will be coming soon. Especially of my last few vacations I havn't posted anything about them yet! :(

The after pictures

So I am a little late at getting these posted... sorry. I love my new hair cut! I seriously chopped it off!! It feels so much better, so light weight and cool. I actually do my hair now. It takes two seconds to blow it dry and two more seconds to style it. I love that part! More importantly my husband likes it! I was worried what he would think the most. Everyone else I don't really care. :) but he really likes it so that makes me like it even more. The first two days or so he just kept saying "Your hot!" He would also say he felt like he was cheating on his wife because I looked so different. ha ha! well here are the results. I am glad I finally did it. With being pregnant it has really helped! I "get ready" a lot more. And I am not as hot and sweaty!This picture is the side that is a little longer then the other one.

Can you kind of tell that is is un even. like longer on one side. That's how I wanted it. :)

I don't know it you can tell but I have a lot of red and blond high lights! The red is really red! and the blond is more caramel.

And last but not least a belly shot of my growing belly! I am 22 weeks! The baby moves all the time! Most of the time I love it! Sometimes its like he moves into an air pocket or a gas bauble and I'm like woooowoo, easy boy!

CHOP

We will call this the before picture... I had just gotten out of the shower so it was half wet half dry (not the best look) but I just wanted to show you what the before picture looked like.

So it's official I am going to chop of my hair! My apointment is tomorrow morning! I will post pictures of my new look soon. I am totally ready for this! It is SO hot especially with no air conditioning! (but we are getting that fixed too! YEAH!) And then the whole being pregnant thing on top of that. It's just HOT! I sweat all day long! it's gross, Brandon and I take Several freezing cold showers a day just so we don't over heat! Tuesday I chop my hair and Wed. We get our air conditioner fixed! What a great week! I am so excited! I have been really wanting an A line Bob look.. something kind of B semetrical even. Something like what Rhianon and Victoria Beckham have.

The Results

OK... I now have to apologize to me little baby because I have been calling him a her for the past two weeks or so. I was TOTALLY wrong. I hate that I was wrong. But we are totally going to have a little boy. A Son. It's kinda cute when I say "son" for some reason? We are really excited though! I kinda have to change my thought process a little because I totally thought we were having a girl. Even after the ultra sound I kept thinking no he was wrong. I kept having Brandon show me again on the picture where his penis was! now I have to deal with a penis. Eeww. Don't get me wrong I am totally excited. My son will be the biggest pimp daddy ever. I went out last night and got a couple "Boy things". I thought I would let you all know our progress, and our news!

Baby Gender

This is me at 20 weeks! I know I am huge! people are always shocked to here how far a long I am! They say things like "Are you sure there isn't two in there?" or something like "What are you going to look like when you are at the end of your pregnancy!?" I know! I am big! I just keep growing! I used to think me boobs where getting quite large, and now that my stomach is enormous I don't think they are even big anymore. ha ha!

I am so excited... I find out the sex of the baby today! I thought I would find out last week and then when it didn't happen I was totally bummed out, along with all the people that have been anxiously waiting with me! but today is the day! I will let you know what the sex is soon! Brandon and I have always thought we are having a girl. So the last two weeks or so when the baby moves I call her a "her" Brandon laughs at me and says oh really, HER? this doesn't mean I WANT a girl I don't really mind either way what I have. The only thing I am going to be disappointed about is if I have been wrong this whole time! you know? I wont be disappointed if it's a boy despite what some people may think. We have a name for either a boy or a girl. We are just excited to finally find out! :)

Hello All

12 weeks. I know I am huge for 12 weeks. 16 weeks. again I know I am huge

I am 18 weeks tomorrow!

I think it's time. I think I am ready to CHOP off my hair. I have only been talking about doing it for over a year now. I told my self when I am ready I will do it. Am I ready? I don't know? for those of you out there that are thinking wow she is thinking too hard about this it's only hair! well your wrong. This is a big decision. Some of you may not get that but it is to me. my hair is long.. and I am ready to change it, first I thought I would just do my regrowth because I have a million gray hairs but now I am thinking ill do what I do every summer and put high lights in it just to pacify me with some type of change. BUT I also think I might actually be ready to do something very drastic! OK for those of you with long hair when you cut it do you regret it instantly or are you so happy with the out come?

I never do my hair any more so what is the point of having long hair in the first place? plus it is SO long and St. George is very hot in the summer. Especially this summer because we just found out we need a new Air Conditioner! YEA! we had someone come out the other day charge us 80 bucks to let us know that it was broken and that we need to replace the whole entire unit! He was guessing it would cost us about 5,500 dollars! So you know THAT isn't going to happen anytime soon! We will have to sweat out the summer and then when the baby comes we will have to change that.

We are going to Cincinnati on Tuesday or wed. next week to visit Brandon's family. Everyone is flying out there to see His parents new place. They recently moved out there from New Jersey. We are super excited to see everyone! All of Brandon's siblings will be together for the first time in like over a year! We will be hitting up a Cincinnati Reds baseball game playing golf and probably doing a lot of shopping and eating. Cross your fingers that I have a lot of "good days" while I am out there.

I am still taking my meds to help with the nausea. I have more good days then bad now. That is a miracle! I still have bad days but now they are mixed with good ones so it makes them bearable! Everything I have been reading about the pregnancy says this is the best I will feel so enjoy it now! And I am! I have gotten so much stuff done since I have had more good days. It is nice.

We have been getting the nursery started! painting, painting, and everything else, we are practically under construction. Its a mess! I will post pics of our project soon! And as promised here are some belly pics!

Still Pregnant...

I know it has been a very long time since I have posted last and I am sorry. Here's the thing, every time I got on my blog I was so sad because the only thing I have to blog about is how sick I am! And I know how old that gets (trust me) and it is not fun to read how much someone has thrown up so instead of boring you with the details of my days of puking, I just haven't posted I am sorry!
I am 14 weeks now Yahoo.. Things have gotten a little better even though I am still sick I have noticed a mild change. I occasionally have a good day out of the bunch and I actually clean cook and go grocery shopping when that happens. Then it seems like the next day I pay for it and I am SO sick again.
OK since I have written there is a lot I can tell you... I had an ultra sound at like week 9 I know way early right. anyway.. I HAD to know if there was more than one baby inside of me! I would literally pray every night to have multiples! I know I am an idiot. Anyway.. Heavenly Father decided one baby was good enough for us and my ultra sound proved there was just one little bean inside of me. I was a little disappointed I will have to admit, I feel so ungrateful for saying that but I was. I would have LOVED to have multiples heck make it a bunch a babies inside of me and I would only have to do this pregnancy thing once! yeah! that would have been nice. OK so I got over it really quickly and thought about all the pluses to having just one! and there was a lot I could think of. So needless to say I am over it.

OK, also I don't know if any of you know but Jessie Rich (well it's not rich any more but you know what I mean) had a baby girl. She is beautiful and they are doing well. But the reason why I am telling you... I was talking to Jessie, mostly confiding in her and telling her how I feel like an awful person because I am still in very much denial about having a baby! I was asking her when it hit her that she was pregnant? My friends I hang out with normally think I am crazy because it's almost like I forget that I am pregnant? Does any one else know what I am talking about? I thought it would all change when I herd the heart beat or when I saw it on the ultra sound or when I got bigger? but None of these things have changed how I felt. I keep waiting for my AH-HA moment as Oprah calls it but nothing of the sorts has really taken places. I feel like I am getting cheated out of this experience of being pregnant. My friends can't possibly imagine how I could forget I am pregnant when I am constantly sick! And I think that may be my problem. This last week or so when I have had a few hours of feeling better I have actually had the chance to be excited about the baby and think about colors in the nursery and things like that.. maybe when I feel better I will be a normal person again? Who knows? I just never thought I would be like this? I thought I would be painting the nursery already and buying baby furniture and clothes and making blankets? Yeah for your info I haven't bought one thing! not one for the baby. What is that supposed to mean?
The comforting thing was Jessie was the same way everything that she said I was thinking too. She said it didn't really hit her until she looked down and saw the baby's head was out when she was in labor. I think a small part of it may be in the back of my mind I think this is too good to be true. I have wanted nothing more then to be a mom for so long that I am terrified this is too good to be true. I don't want to live in fear and I don't think I do it's just the only thing that I can think of? Maybe it's just that we tried for so long that I just can't believe it is happening. From the second I saw the positive pregnancy test nothing has gone how I imagined it during all the time of waiting and wanting a baby. But oh well..
Don't get me wrong we ARE excited none the less, I try to talk about it more with Brandon because we don't talk about "the baby" that often. We have names though... we have a boy and a girl name. That made it more exciting when we decided on those. I will be finding out the sex next month, fingers crossed that we can tell! I will keep you more updated I promise and belly pictures will be coming soon.
Well there goes one more very public venting session!

SICK SICK SICK!

We all new it would happen... I am SO sick! I have been awful, my house is a mess! I don't cook any more AT ALL. I don't even go grocery shopping. How in the world am I supposed to go fly? yeah not going to happen! My husband does everything. He works full time, comes home takes care of me, cleans the house, does the dishes and is such a sweet heart! Last Monday I threw up about 9 times.. Tuesday I wasn't keeping anything down. Brandon came home from work and notified me that we were going into the doctor, (he had taken half of the day off). We went in and got a prescription to Zofran. Which has made a big difference! I still get sick I still throw up but I can tell there is a difference. But the last couple days it has felt like the pills aren't working. I feel awful again! Brandon thinks that my sickness is just getting worse and that if I didn't have the Zofran it would be unbearable. And that it is doing something, even though I still feel crappy! I can't really leave the radius of the toilets. I went grocery shopping for the first time last night and I almost threw up a million times at Walmart. As soon as we got home I let it come out, I am just grateful I didn't do it at Walmart and cause the loud speaker to say "We need a clean up on isle 4, clean up on isle 4" that would have been bad! Nothing sounds good to eat! I cant smell anything either! Every time I need to eat something it is a struggle to find something I haven't already thrown up, something that actually sounds good and something that wont be too bad coming back up again! I have had a lot of help from friends and family. I have some friends that come over and clean my house and cook us dinner! How nice is that! I guess I will have to repay them someday! That's OK with me They have been lifesavers! Thanks Sarah and Stevo!

here we go...

OK, so I scheduled a doctor appointment with a doctor that I was referred to that specializes in helping women get pregnant. Two days before that appointment I took a pregnancy test and it was POSITIVE!

okay So I have known for 17 whole days and I haven't said anything yet... I thought I would do better but at the same time I have kept it in for a long time. Brandon and I had an eventful day on the Tuesday the 4th with finding out some of our really good friends were pregnant. We had been on the same schedule with our periods and we had both been spotting and not really starting.. So after we came home from celebrating with our friends (because we were at their house when they took their pregnancy test!!) WE took one... and it was positive! needless to say we were VERY shocked and very much in denial especially after just finding out our friends were pregnant! We have been very nervous after a year of trying that something might go wrong... and then last week we found out our friends the same ones that found out they were pregnant on the same night as us miss carried! :( that was a really hard week! So needless to say we have been very nervous to tell people! But this week I have been VERY SICK! My first throw up day was monumental and I was even excited after I threw up for the first time. I know who gets excited about that? ha ha! But we did, we took that as a good sign. :) But now I can do with out it! I am sick all day long! I am about seven weeks along so it's still very new! But fortunately I have already been to the doctor because I kept my originally doctor appointment for my fertility appointment. I already have an ultrasound scheduled for April 7th. My 40 weeks are up on November 8th!

It's beautiful here!

I love living in St. George. A couple weeks ago the weather started changing and everyone pulled out their summer clothes and flip flops! I love it! So Brandon and I gave each other pedicures so our feet would look beautiful in our sandals. It was a lot of fun. We did really good jobs. Last year for my birthday Brandon bought me a pedicure set. And all year he said he would give me one when I was ready for it. And a year later I redeemed my gift and we gave one to each other. We went all out with the foot mask, the foot balm, and the yummy stuff you put in the water to make it smell good and feel good on your feet. The pedicure set came with these little polka dotted booty socks and after my pedicure I wore them for a while then after Brandon's pedicure I made him wear them! He even polished my toes and choose the color. I polished his too with a clear coat. They looked really good and it was a lot of fun. :)